Once upon a connection

Written on 5/27/2017 at 1:30 pm by eBook-mom

There is nothing like filling a page with your thoughts.  It can be a private affair: a notebook or computer file.  Or, it can be a public affair like a blog.  For years, I felt that I had nothing to say publicly.  I would write posts and not put in any of my personal thoughts; but, this just made my posts kind of generic.  I often felt like I wasn't connecting with anyone. 

Connecting with someone

Now, I want to connect with someone - or a whole lot of "someone's" and it seems the way you do that - connect - is to put yourself out there.  So, this is what I am going to do from now on:  put myself out there. I'm not sure how to do this but I figure that I will learn by doing.

Today is the middle of a long Memorial Day weekend. I don't have any plans except to stay home and catch up on my housework.  I'm not very efficient when it comes to cleaning.  My former therapist Rosemary used to say that housework tends to expand with time.  I don't know if I'm quoting her correctly.  I can't go back to ask her as she is no longer with us.

Hard work and stability

I have lost count of the months that Rosemary has been gone.  I just miss her a lot.  She was a brilliant therapist.  I learned a lot from her.  I have bipolar disorder.  Thanks to a good new therapist, hard work, and, a good nurse practitioner I am stable right now.

I guess I could have gone for months without telling you I'm bipolar but why hide it.  I hope that  "we" are past the age where we put someone down for having a mental disability.  However, I do understand that bipolar disorder does have many negative connotations. It's just the way things are. 

Many shades of bipolar disorder

It is my belief that there are many shades of bipolar disorder.  Like cancer it attacks in different forms but in the end, it all comes down to the basic thing: two poles - one depression and the other mania.  You go to extremes either way. You're either so sad you can't do anything; or. so manic that you can't stop from doing everything.

Shining a light on mental illness

I could hide this information but what's the point?  I think it is very damaging to society when we keep mental health issues in the dark .  It is true that bipolar at the extreme is very hard on the persons in the life of that bipolar person.  Bipolar disorder is tough on everyone.

Anyway, I don't want to hide the disorder from my readers.  I will talk more about it as we go on.  Right now I would like to talk about why I have chosen to be e-book-mom.  In particular, books have been a constant in my life.  Good or bad days, I always have my books.  (and now e-books).  I think reading is so important for sharing ideas and dreams.  Books have saved my life.

Writing from the heart

So, I wanted to have a blog about e-books.  If you go to read some pages that I already have on the website, I do some reviews of books that I have read.  I'm not the best with reviews.  You have to give a summary of the book and I find that difficult and tedious.  I don't want to do that anymore.  I want to write about books and topics and anything else that isn't a summary.  Sometimes you do have to summarize, I understand that -- but from now on I'm writing from my heart.

I'm on a journey to become a better blogger.  I want to connect with my readers.  Will you come with me as I try?

Thank you!